SOMETIMES WHEN I SAY I'M FINE

Sometimes when I say I'm fine
                                          I mean
 
I have a log of wood in my skull
My left eye twitches like its battery is about to die
 
My back has four 10 inch nails     hammered
at the intersections
 
There are shards of glass rupturing my heart
And my mind is a town, caught in the palms
of an earthquake
 
I think no good thoughts toward myself
As they surely will bring me to an unexpected end
 
Sometimes when I say I'm fine
I cough out lies
that you want to hear
 
Because when I tell you the truth
You play dead

How do I control my depression

I write all the ways I want to kill myself
I make it graphical
I make it art.
 
I rip out the page
rend it to tiny pieces, I
throw it into the bin.
 
Then I live to write another day.

BIO:
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Kormbat is a Nigerian poet. He was a mentor in the SprinNG Fellowship 2018.
He graduated from Babcock University. ​